THAT is was I experienced. As I breathed and allowed my body to be swallowed up in this radiant light, I understood that it wasn't overtaking me, it WAS (and IS) me. ** I am this energy. I am this vibrating white heat. I am the light of a thousand suns. This power, this light, this brilliance, this potent dynamic energy not only lies within me, IT IS ME!
And the other foot hovering over a new space that's kind of dark and mysterious. It seems to call to me ... whispering words I can almost hear. And sometimes I almost plant my foot down in that space which would allow me to see a bit more clearly what that spot actually is ... but it's never quite happened. I always linger a bit too long and allow my brain to talk me out of it;
YOU are the agent, the instrument, the means that expresses this unique spark of the one source of which we are all a part of.
I sometimes imagine standing at the threshold of a vast field of space. Stretching out before me is infinite possibility.
Here's what I've learned through it though: What's MOST important, is to truly see MYSELF.
That's the awareness behind EVERYTHING. Every moment. Every contact. Every thought. Every feeling. It is all one.
When we each come into greater peace, it affects ALL of us. We're connected. We're ONE energy ... each of us is significant and can make a difference.
You can become invisible ... so the only thing that is seen in your expression of beingness, is the Light of all that is. And in that invisibility there is peace, and power and purpose.
After a moment "in the light" I feel like I can do anything, I can meet any challenge with greater ability, and I can give MORE love and light into the world just because it feels so good to do so.
I imagine the moments that I'm out of alignment HS is hitting that red flashing "WARNING! STOP!" button just to help ME. Those moments that there is dissonance are there to help me see more clearly. The peace is alignment. Absence of peace is NOT ALIGNMENT (the warning button). When there is an absence of peace all I need to do is acknowledge that absence and then LOOK FOR THE PEACE.
I do not have it all figured out. I am the first person to admit that I know nothing. What I understand today WILL change. For sure. That is the ONLY thing I know. I understand that the pattern has been that I ask, and I receive and I'm open and things are WAY different than I suspected or thought but the greater understanding I receive actually makes WAY more sense than what my limited perspective was understanding and the NEW greater understanding is relieving and joyful and FULL of peace and freedom!
What I know now is that my heart is one with all things, my energy is part of that universal wholeness and I can't change that fact. That means that what I DO can't change that fact, what I SAY can't change that fact, and what you think can't change that fact.
It is easy to go through life and to struggle and fight against all that happens. We think that when we have a flat tire we've hit a "hitch" in the plans and if we take an unknown turn we're off course. Not so. I do not believe that. I believe that we are each exactly where we're supposed to be for our greatest maximum potential for learning and growth.
As I was "walking" my heart rate down before I had to be home ... with 8 minutes to spare to take my daughter to middle school, I just felt this gratitude. I said to that "God Universe" space within me, "Thank you thank you thank you. I am grateful I can run, I am grateful the sun is shining, I am grateful I am continually sustained, and I am so grateful I see who I am. Thank you for helping me see."
That soul space within you IS guiding you. It knows exactly where you need to go and exactly what you need to get there. It is a PERFECT guide for YOU. Not for anyone else, they have their own guide within them. Do not think for one moment that YOUR journey needs to look like anyone else's ... it is for you. If you are paying attention to YOUR divine guide ... and seeing the fruit that comes from it (expansion, love, unity, peace, joy, GROWTH) then you are exactly where you need to be and you can have faith that you are progressing perfectly.
Isn't it amazing that sometimes when you are having a "day" ... you know the kind ... maybe you're just in a funk and you don't know why ... and then all of a sudden out of nowhere you will receive something that makes you feel loved, or induces a smile, or causes you to laugh or something that lightens your mood. It's not a coincidence. It's because your energy is part of ALL of existence and the Universe conspires for your good. When you are down, there is something or someone that can and will help you feel better. Look for that thing. Expect that thing.