This past year my husband and I have had the opportunity to open our eyes to the reality of what our relationship was, what relationships CAN be, and to begin to merge the two together.
So I'm actually seeing now that motherhood has been and is an incredible gift in so many ways. The perfect gift, sometimes wrapped in really ugly paper, but lovely and amazing on the inside when you turn it around and look at it from a new angle.
I just ended a love pilgrimage. It was a deep dive 44 day journey into love and union. Love and union with myself; all the parts of me. And love and union with others. To say this experience changed my life is an understatement. It was profound in so many ways.
Even when I'm knee deep in muck and grind, I can catch a glimpse of something truly magnificent, and that glimpse pulls me up slightly so the muck and the grind that feels so depleting has less of a hold on me than it did.
Love is not merely "romantic" ... And it is not kept for only relationships with others. Love is a dynamic field of potential where ANYTHING is possible.
It is exhausting, frustrating, exasperating, chaotic humdrum. But somewhere in the humdrum is a little spark of magic or a little whisp of loveliness. And you see it occasionally hiding within and beneath and beyond. And when you look directly at it, it shimmers and shines and whispers, "And this is love."
Anytime is the perfect time. Any day, you can sit down and make a list of the things that you'd like to focus on, the things that you think would add light to your life, and you can begin that day to move into that new energy.
When we each come into greater peace, it affects ALL of us. We're connected. We're ONE energy ... each of us is significant and can make a difference.
I don't always welcome the triggering circumstances, when they present themselves, but I am beginning to see that they DO provide opportunities if I look.
Guess what happens then? Nothing. The thought goes. I don't activate it further by dwelling on it, thus giving it momentum, I just let it go and I become present. "I am here. This is now."
She is me! That's the most awesome part about this WHOLE thing! I see that the divine within me, IS me. It's not outside of me. It's not apart from me. It's not something I must work at. It is the truest expression of my CORE being and it is here today, right now.
And so in seeking the better way she began to see differently. Her view changed. Her perspective had changed. Her way to live in the world had changed. She didn't just accept those things that were unacceptable anymore, she looked for ways to make them better and for things that could change the world.